Struggle or Journey?
💭 The Cycle of Self-Doubt I keep repeating myself, as if I were lost. The past few months haven't been easy, especially the last few weeks, when my mind tries to trap me in its old dialogues. I blame myself, judge myself, and sometimes become paralyzed by pain. It's natural. I remind myself: "Katy, everything changes, and you are not standing idly by in your own life." I am asking questions, challenging myself, reading, looking in the mirror because I know the answer is within me, and everything is for the better. But... is it worth living this way? Can time be recovered? Can I afford to focus on what I didn't do? Am I on the right path?
🔄 Choosing a New Perspective
The answer is no and yes. I don't want to feel that life is slipping through my fingers. Years ago, life lost its meaning like never before. The desire to stop feeling the warmth in my body was strong, and no one close to me knew. For some reason, something kept pushing me forward, and I have this strange certainty that another reality exists in my life—a port I haven't yet reached. I don't want to live as if I have no agency, like an actress trapped in someone else's script. I am a writer; I have decided so.
✍️ Why I Write
I wrote the title: Adversity or Path? You may wonder why. The answer is simple: every event in our lives is a lesson—new or repeated—that we have yet to learn. If you're here, maybe the title caught your attention, or perhaps it was a random moment of browsing, an internet accident where life's wonderful synchronicity brought you here to remind you that many people are going through these uncomfortable moments. I have no idea, but I've decided to write, even if I'm not the best.
I've decided to put my thoughts into words without overthinking, as a mix of catharsis and self-discovery. How many people started like this and, in their scattered words, found what their soul was searching for? One day, I will return to these words and maybe feel a bit embarrassed, but I will say: CATALINA! You cannot change them; you can only correct the spelling mistakes.
🛤️ The Path Forwars
Today, I hold the choice in my hands: to see every "situation" as adversity—something hard, difficult—or as a path I must learn to navigate, searching for answers or simply feeling. This way, it feels more natural, more digestible, lighter. It is a journey I can take at my own pace, with stones and uneven ground that will affect my steps but will also lead me to new peaks, to necessary pauses, and, ultimately, to one of many summits. Today, I seek acceptance and peace with my decisions, which were made without malice and without seeking to manipulate.
And I will achieve it. Because I am taking inventory. We are students of life, whether we are aware of it or not. I have realized that my stance is seen as a mistake by many, but is it their body, their being, their life? No. It is mine—finally, mine.
💫"This is the perfect moment to start anew, to see every obstacle as an opportunity to learn and grow." —Lailah Gifty Akita 💪
🛤️ Your Choice Matters
One thing I will tell you—giving up is not an option. Which button will you choose?
🔘 LIVE in pain, repeating the same story over and over, in complete denial, blaming others.
🔘 LIVE in responsibility, with the certainty that everything will change for the better because you are the architect of your own destiny.
"Just sharing my thoughts—I hope they uplift you." 💛
